Unknown Tears

Today, the 2nd day of Chinese New Year, after got back home from IKEA (I don't know why my sister and me had this intention), straight away grabbed my PS2 joystick, played God War, just for the sick of get rid of boredom.

Laid back with a bottle of carbohydrate drinks and munching with new year cookies. So relax, that I almost forgot myself. I was into gaming mood.



And then, I found my tears shedding out, without noticed. I thought it was just the sand went into my eyes, or the chopped onion smell came through the kitchen. But NO, it flowed out, just like the loosen water tap at your bathroom,

*tick *tick *tick

I stopped my game, and had a belief thinking, I've thought of several possibilities:

1. The loneliness from not celebrating Chinese New Year with family
2. Stressful, keep thinking projects and assignments eventhough it's holidays
3. I felt pathetic, Angpow's getting lesser
4. I'm nobody at the moment
5. Too much water, don't know where to dispose =_="
   

I don't know, its either one of it, or all of them.

Word of the day - Okay

I had a finance class today, were doing an analytical financial statement, and we have to determine whether the company from the case given is running 'Good' or 'Bad'. In my textbook, the result shown "Okay" instead of either 'Good' or 'Bad'. So my Finance lecturer, who has a big crush to Bah Kut Teh & Ribena (*swt), he actually explained that the meaning of Okay, is meaning nothing.


The word Okay, (ō-kā') is the right pronunciation, has been a very useful word to neutralize things that you don't really agree nor disagree.

I got a statement from dictionary.com, which can simply explain everything.

Word History: OK is a quintessentially American term that has spread from English to many other languages. Its origin was the subject of scholarly debate for many years until Allen Walker Read showed that OK is based on a joke of sorts. OK is first recorded in 1839 but was probably in circulation before that date. During the 1830s there was a humoristic fashion in Boston newspapers to reduce a phrase to initials and supply an explanation in parentheses. Sometimes the abbreviations were misspelled to add to the humor. OK was used in March 1839 as an abbreviation for all correct, the joke being that neither the O nor the K was correct. Originally spelled with periods, this term outlived most similar abbreviations owing to its use in President Martin Van Buren's 1840 campaign for reelection. Because he was born in Kinderhook, New York, Van Buren was nicknamed Old Kinderhook, and the abbreviation proved eminently suitable for political slogans. That same year, an editorial referring to the receipt of a pin with the slogan O.K. had this comment: "frightful letters ... significant of the birth-place of Martin Van Buren, old Kinderhook, as also the rallying word of the Democracy of the late election, 'all correct' .... Those who wear them should bear in mind that it will require their most strenuous exertions ... to make all things O.K."

So here's the joke:

Male Doctor: So what's wrong with you?
Patient: I'm under part very itchy lah doctor~
Male Doctor: (*starring *cough) wait, you didn't stated down your gender, are you a boy or a girl?
Patient: Okay....
Male Doctor: .... so boy or girl?
Patient: I'm a girl lah doctor~ so obvious you can't tell meh~?
Male Doctor: Okay...
Patient: What 'Okay'? Meaning you still doubting my gender?
Male Doctor: I didn't say I disagree
Patient: But you did not agree on me mah~!
Male Doctor: Okay whatever it is, let me check your under part.
Patient: Nah (*open thighs)
Male Doctor: HOLY COW! YOU SAID YOU WERE A GIRL?!
Patient: She-male mar~ (*shy)

Next time when you confront something that you might want to agree or disagree, Say 'Yes' or 'No'

Degree Semester 1 Results

After all of the hot-oil-lamp study weeks, THIS is what I got.


Marketing Study, I got highest, and credit goes to my groupmates Mei Mei and others.
Business Law, I thought I did well in explaining the cases?
French Language, presentations were okay, but exam......
Hotel Planning & Design, GOSH THAT'S WHY ITS THE LOWEST ONE!
Revenue Management, It is below my expectation.
Management Information System for Hospitality, oh no......


The reason why I post my result out, is to show, no matter how early I do my preparations and my much effort I sacrifices for the exams, still it's ended up so average. And and and, see the marks, especially the 14.80 ones, just a little bit more to score A's! *grrrr.....woaf woaf!

Peeped on friend's results, and look back at mine.... *sigh

I actually did called to my mom and told her my result. and she was like:

"Okay lah, try harder next time lah okay?"

Urgh.....my emotion leaks out as my tears fall, like loosen water tap.

But one thing is for sure, I've learned a lesson,

"Work hard for today, like tomorrow is the judgment day."

I gained stronger, stronger in sense of pushing myself to get more marks in every subjects.


I don't care, this is my last Semester studying in Taylor's...
I WANT TO GET VERY HONORABLE THIS TIME IN MY DEGREE!!!

2 Mandarin Oranges From Maldivians

Afternoon class, was boring rather sleepy *yawn


I saw my Maldivian classmates came into class late, with big bags plastic. With my intelligence and my logical sense, I can tell its 2 boxes of Mandarin Oranges, you know the one we usually eat during Chinese New Year. So I myself thought they bought for their friends or neighbors.

Break time, I came back from toilet and saw them talking something. My curiosity leads me the way, approached to them and asked:

Me: "Hey guys, you all love Mandarin Orange?"

Yamani: "Yeah"

Me: "Wow, you got 2 boxes, are those for you?"
Yamani: "No, its for you guys, all the classmates"
Me: "Huh ARE YOU SERIOUS?"

Okay, at first I thought it was just a joke. Just right before we call it a day, they came to front and greet us "Happy New Year" with from the bottom of their hearts, then distribute 2 Mandarin Oranges to each of us. I was like so touched, its not always you see classmates being so .... so ..... ah I don't know what word can be described, nice? Nice knowing that they were being so considerate, by giving us 2 Mandarin Oranges, which means bring good fortune in new year.

Talking bout they being nice, its been so fun to have Maldivians in our class, cherish the moment, and never let the fun goes away during classes. Apparently it is their study culture, they sing, they dance, and they steal things study (thinking of Jason Mraz - I'm Yours =p). Friendliness has changed and widen my perspective towards international study, I see happiness shining brightly from them =D

I myself flowing Chinese blood inside of my body, always only think of myself and almost neglected the meaning of sharing caring. We as a Chinese has not do any thing but the Maldivians, they do not celebrate CNY but still they are adapting to our culture.

Okay this is no any advertorial or others intention. I'm doing this just because I appreciated to have such nice friends like them.


I love you guys so much that I can't tell more =D

Don't Mess With Me

I know, in fact, I'm petite and skinny, I don't have a smart brain that can possibly make me scored full As in my exam, I don't have a wealth family, I am born tanned, or even not a good friend. But 1 thing I have to clarify, I DON'T DESERVED TO BE TREATED HUMILIATE.

To be frank, I don't find myself comfortable in the situation, that people keep shooting me with the word 'Black' and I was just pretending I-don't-care. It's been years, I've been given so many nicknames and either of it has a connection to my tanned skin. Okay fine, I can't change fact nor fate, just consider its a gift. Now who ever dare to insult my tanned skin, I'LL GIVE HIM A 'CREDIT', A GOOD ONE!

I am skinny, but I am not sissy! I admit that I have a very small waist and arms that can make thousands girl jealous, but that doesn't mean I am a girl! Please my friend, if you can be me for just 1 day, no, half day is just enough, I am sure you could know how skinny people behave. You call me sissy? I GIVE YOU NO MERCY!

Everyone has a different background, despite both of them in a same region country states or whatever. Some people, they are very good social in Chinese, and some very fluently in English, but that doesn't mean we have a huge gap! I myself brave enough to say I am very good in Malay, and others still catching up, that doesn't mean you can use your stupid eyesight to see me as a useless Chinese guy. OCBC orang cina bukan cina, once I hear this sentence, my blood pressure will possibly high rise and give a BOOM on someone consequently the person become pigheaded. TRUST ME I WILL DO!

I don't be mean, but friends shouldn't do it this way. Friend is friend and Joke is a joke, my patience has its limit, if its off against the rules, I've got nothing much to say, but to PLAY HARSH.

SO DON'T MESS WITH ME ANYMORE

Thanks Adam Sandler for the Inspiration, I am free now.

Degree Semester 2 started

Class has already started since Monday, and I've been busy preparing my France Trip stuff.



Monday, it's so good to see my classmates after 1 month holiday, everyone has put on some weight, and that is so obvious. Only me, keeping my skinny body stay still. Friends are still lovely and friendly as usual. Apparently, the first thing is to greet "hows your holidays?", then followed by "have you bought your winter wear yet?" .

LOL

And and and, we have a newly arrived Australian lecturer, thought he's an English. Accent was quite strong as I don't frequently speak to Aussie people. Funny thing was, he was asking us something, saying something sound like "allecate", at first I thought he was trying to ask us about the Malaysian famous Jazzy blues singer "Alleycats". But I was wrong, he said "allocate".

WTF!

Elangkovan, what's the first thing in your mind when you hear this name? Thought he's some Thailanist, but he's an Indian, and old Indian guy! Perhaps he has some thailanist blood, which I then call it Thailandian (eww...). Malaysian accent very strong and rather understandable.

*THUMB UP

Tuesday, First class was canceled. But we had a group meeting on the MICE (Meeting Incentives Conference Exhibition) regarding of theme selection. We slightly have ideas what to do, and we desirably to share out ideas. I admit that I'm a little bit too ambitious, so at the end I just vote for the wise one among the selections.

BOOOORING....

Ah, then its class for Elangkovan the Thailandian, and it was just simply fun

=D

Food nutritious will never be my favorite, I hate things especially that relate to biological chemistry or in simple English, science. But one thing definitely catch my attention, my new Food Sociology lecturer Pierre blah blah blah, a Frenchie guy who has the 90% exact face figure as Daniel Radcliffe, you know the guy plays the role as Harry Potter? You just feel the passion and motivation all flowing into your veins~ But he does really a good teaching material I supposed.

AHH... I FEEL GOOD *damn sound so horny

Wednesday, thought it could be a good day for me, but it started with an unconsciousness. My class supposed to start at 9am and I was still in my bed nest warming myself with my comfort quilt, until my housemate called at 8.30am. Was kinda rush, thought could make it before the lecturer does. He's the rabbit, I'm the turtle, I was late. And one of my Maldivian classmate give me a morning greet "Hey Philip why so formal lah?". I was like "Morning Rixa, your asking stupid question". EVERYONE IS FRIGGING SCARED OF THAT BIG FATTY OILY HIPPO LOOK ALIKE GUY! HOW COULD I DARE NOT TO FOLLOW THE RULES? But actually, it wasn't that scary as I thought, probably he's too gancheong for the first day of having our class, and his English is so terribly fast and slumber. I don't know how he did it, but in fact he actually does.

OH YEAH THIS HIPPO NAMED WHS (short form, I don't dare to offend him so obvious =p)

After lunch time, we had our first French Trip Briefing. Was too excited to hear all the schedule and itinerary. Very Informative and helpful enough. And Yeah, Alex will be meeting us in Paris on 10th and 11th came long way from UK!

I JUST SO LOVE YOU ALEX

I had an appointment at 2pm with my tutor regarding of my Dissertation. So gancheong until I can't finished my lunch. I just knew I will not be getting high marks, as what they all expected, BUT I DIDN'T EXPECTED I WILL GET THAT LOW! 6 MARKS OVER 20, DAMN THAT GONNA BREAK THE RECORD OF THE HISTORY! My sentiments exactly...

BERNARD, KNNCB!

I don't know how am I going to stand the college life anymore, after all been 3 years in Taylor's, I found out that, it's like, the book cover is so damn F*cking pretty until it gives you desire to open it, then when you decided to open it, you see torn pages. It's only the first week of my Semester 2, why do I deserved this?

I need someone to lead me the way...

Release Anger

I want to angry, but I know I shouldn't. In fact, I myself have to responsible on this. Things can be discussed in many different ways, not just from 1 point of view.

I'm sorry but i have to do this. Please do not continue read this, its just all rubbish released from my deep down angers.



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I felt so sorry... really sorry... Although it doesn't help a bit, but I have a clear mind now.
Damn, I'm now feel sorry to my keyboard!

Pamper myself before class starts

Few more days later, I'm gonna back to that boring college life style, again. During the passed holidays, I spoiled myself, pamper myself too much with shopping, movies, web surfing and McDonald's. Homework? Don't give a damn, it's my holiday man!


Perhaps this is too much for a single person =p. Seriously, I need to think about being a health conscious person. I know someday I will get sick with this continuously. Hell take me away from these!


When I was being an Otaku, instant noodles would be my best pal, despite how strong the MSG will do to you. That's how the typical Japanese people do, stay at home lock him/herself in the room and stay with his/her noodle cup. Well, I have to save lots of money for the coming France trip, so this is kinda effective savings method I'm using, away from shopping movies yamcha and blah blah blah... and it worked!


Of course not just sit inside my room and stay with my pathetic noodles (some it's Korean made). *Eh hem, let me introduce you my dearly beloved ones, HP (not Hush Puppies or Hilton Paris). So useful to eliminate boredom. I can do everything with the Internet, yes I meant "everything". I believe if one day my HP gone missing, I swear to god I will find that person and treat him a good deadly smack.


Yes!!! WeiChong brother never treat me good food~ Oh no my stomach getting drumming now... Korean noodles, should I? hehe

2009 Commitments

It's the beginning of a brand new year 2009. Whatever I've done in 2008, it's a history. Well, no one really likes history, especially your Sejarah study when you were in high school. To achieve something, you must set a target to go on. I've set a few commitments, in ways to improve and deserve a better life.


From top to the bottom:























1. Study Hard, of course, to get AT LEAST Honorable in my degree. As a matter of fact, I did pretty hard in degree. Mom says this probably is gonna be my last year to study, not gonna touch any textbook after this. So why don't I put more effort to complete it beautifully?

*nod *nod

2. I'm not going to get rid of sweets and sugars, but I can reduce the consumption. After all the spending, I've realized that 1/5 of my expenses fall under snacks & confectioneries, DAMN it is so F*cking wasted! It would be good if I do savings or get some healthy nutritiousness's rather than for sweets. I'm kinda scared to get diabetes actually...

*nod *nod

3. Talking about savings, seriously I need to constraint my budget this year. DO NOT spend too much like money came from nowhere, and DO NOT do shopping, unless it's necessary. As I have a goal, I need to do savings so that I got enough money to get my car license, and bring mom and dad for trip.

*nod *nod

4. I'm getting a good job right after I finished my degree. Everyone seems to plan going out of the world, but only me remain here. I wished to go out there and widen my scope, but there's just something I can't leave behind, either family or personal's. It's too early to mark my own words, I just have to make decision according to the current situation.

Hmm...*nod *nod

5. Stop falling myself into some stupid love trap. After all what happened, I just can't pull out myself from the depth shit hole. Practically, I do believe in the integrity of love, but in fact, whole lot of people don't practicing it. So I was wondering why would I spend my time on this F*cking useless thingy? There are some other things waiting for me to be done.

*NOD *NOD

Basically, these are the mostly thing I need to be done. Please, a commitment is meant to achieved in order to reach to the peak level. I want to be a good boy. Santa didn't gave me present last year, because he said I wasn't being good enough. Dear Santa, you know what to do?