I'm Getting Married ... Today

Since young, I have a way, a pathway of my life given from my parents. I was small, don't even had a chance to voice out. Until when I was 10 years old, I've been told the whole story;

I have to be married before my 20th

I was young, and thought marriage is a game of life, like how we play "masak-masak" (culinary) during the good old days. I still remember the excitement when my parents and sisters told me this, I was like bouncing here and there, just like normal hyperactive young boy.

Now, I know your question, who is the girl?


Actually, I wasn't familiar with her, cause I only met her once when I was 10 years old. Until the past 2 years, we met in some working place. We were kinda awkward, and surprised seeing each other like an anonymous. But later on, we hang out a lot, and of course we became closer and closer. We almost forgot that we have a destiny, that have been agreed under both parentage in early days.

The following question, do I have something on her?
To be frank, I don't know, you see, we more like sister brother, and for what I'm sure, we both are attached with someone. I have my own relationship, so do her. I've been discuss with my partner, saying that me and her have a destiny on going. Of course, we had so many argument and quarreled too much that I can't recall. At last, he had to accept the fact, and I of course, felt sour, dealing in this kind of situation. It's been a great days with my partner, really great. On the other side, she told me, she did the same thing, and still can't let go off this relationship, and she had longer relationship compare to me *sigh

Today, I'm going to marry a girl, who has no feeling towards me, at all. I felt so sorry to her, to crush into her life and ruin everything that are not supposed to be. But, what to do? Fate talks, and we do. All I hope is we can love each other, like what marriage supposed to be. Nevertheless, if we got any children, I will pour my love and all bliss to them from the top to their toes.

I promise...

Thus, I wish all of my friends and family, pals and buddies, bless us, hope we receive bliss in further days. My wedding ceremony will be held in Church of The Holy Rosary Kuala Lumpur, right behind of the Kuala Lumpur Old Railway Station. The time will be started from 8a.m. until 12pm noon. In case you don't know the place, here is the picture and the map for your convenient;

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I'm still sitting in front of my computer
watching the calender on the wall
and looking at the watch...

tick ... tack ... tick ... tack ...

By the way, just to inform you that, today is 1st of April.
SORRY SHIOWLING HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Thoughts of Taking Nude Pictures

Before continue reading, the content below may not contain any nudity, adult situations, violence or other obscenities.


I have these thoughts running through my head

should I take nude pictures?

Don't get me wrong, it's is an artistry under professionalism. People might give you a very different eye sight, especially Asians (sorry no offends). They sure will ask:



"why lah you want to take nude pictures?"

"wah, you not feel shame ah?

"eiyer, you dare naked infront of photographer meh?

"you got nice body meh?

"SIAO ah you?!"

First of all, the reason of why I want to have nude picture of myself, is because it is one of my "100 to-do list". I have this in my mind long time ago, but don't get me wrong, I'm not psycho. Well, to be frank, there is nothing to be shamed and I don't feel it that way too. Just appreciate it as an art. Below are the samples:

Apparently, they weren't shown too much of their private part.
That's how professionalism works.

Okay, speaking of photographer, how to get one who can be trusted? I guess through word of mouth? Well, anyone can be your photographer actually, as long as they have a right attitude, and with previous distinction portfolio. Currently I have one now, but the fear becomes a barrier. I keep asking myself; "is this the right time?"


Nevertheless, everyone has their first time, why not?

Earth Hour

Did you switch off the lights Yesterday?

Earth Hour was took place on Saturday, March 28, 2009 at 8:30 pm, local time. 82 countries and more than 2100 cities are committed to 'Earth Hour 2009', a huge increase from people participating in 35 countries for Earth Hour 2008.
(source: wikipedia.org)

I just got back from Sunway Pyramid, and the time was just right 8.30pm+. Went for some groceries from Jusco, and the lights were switching one by one, thought they are participating on this event too. Who knows it's a technician problem *sigh

Once I stepped out from Sunway Pyramid, I was kinda have different feelings. Outside were dark, and people are holding those tiny aluminum sealed candles, everywhere even the pubs and restaurants. Some bunch of youngsters, they were playing with the glowing sticks, and it wasn't just one holding one glowing sticks, plenty on their body!

The objective of having this 'Earth Hour' is to conserve nature and sources to reduce the carbon footprint. So I myself thinking, how doo candles and glowing sticks are made off? Does it contribute much to the Global Warming, issue that everyone talks about these days. It came through my mind speedly.

You see, candles are made of wax, and ofcourse it has to be some chemical form inside, and the process of making it in the factory sure will bring impact to the Global Warming. Then what happened if you lighten up the candles? HEAT! 1 person lighten up 1 candles contribute a certain percentage to GW, and how if hundreds, thousand, millions people lighten up the candles? I don't want to talk about glowing sticks, i bet everyone knows how it made.

I mean, comon' la people, you don't practising these everyday, and it's just a small favor by asking you to switch off the lights for 1 hour, but at the end you go do other stuff which are not helping it at all.

If they say switch of the lights, JUST BE IT LAR!

WHY PLAY FUNNY FUNNY THINGS ?!

Paint My Life

Paint my Life.

It's not what the FengSui Sifu tells you how to live, but it's you yourself color your life.

Color pencils, crayons, poster colors... those are your sources of living.

I Scared, Almost Went Nuts

Today, the sunlight almost burn my ass, go to class like normal, and I thought it was going to be a good day.

Class started, 10.30am. Was still on jokes with my buddies. Then I received a call from my sister. Well, usually my sisters call me for 2 reasons: Help her to book flight tickets through Airasia, or ask me how-to-do this and that. So I was presume that she wanted to get flight ticket. Once I picked up, she asked where am I, with an unpleasant tone of voice. I was curious, and replied that I'm having class right now. Then follow by the others, I mean sisters...

She said, someone called up to home and said I've been kidnapped.

Funny, then who's the one sitting in the classroom?

She was very serious to me, and I still can't figure it out. I went out from the classroom and called my mum, *tet* *tet* engaged... So I called up my dad. Same tone same question: "Where are you now?!". I told them I was in the class the whole morning, and I have not been contact with anyone. My dad said mum was actually talking with the "kidnappers". I heard, and my mum was so fierce actually, talking with the person. Once they know I'm safe, they relief. My dad passed the phone to my mum, and I can know my mum was shivering while talking with me.

I cried out, yeah I did.

She said, she thought she heard my voice on the phone, said i was crying and mumbling begging for help. That's not my style, totally not! The funny part was, "kidnappers" actually calm my mum not to gancheong, then asked for RM100thousand to redeem me. My mum, of course smart enough to test them, said husband was not around, out-station, and no money at the moment. They asked,

"how much you got in your bank right now?"

mum replied

"RM200 oh"

"Rm200!!! Your son's finger worth Rm200 lah!"

I don't know, It's kinda funny to me. Once again, I explain and calm my mum, and warn them never ever fall into their tricks, because I'm save now. She cried, and I cried, and I felt so sorry to let my classmates worry me.

In the afternoon, right before I went to have a nap, an unknown number called me, said he's from Citylink courier service wanting my house address. With no second thoughts, I gave him my current staying place address in KL. Then he said, the office is in Kota Kinabalu, which is my hometown, and I gave him my Post Office Box number. THEN he wanted my house address cause wuha wuha wuha nonsense and all...

I throw away my phone and jump onto bed.

THAT'S SO FREAKY!!! I HAD TOO MUCH TODAY!!!!!!
STOP KACAU ME AND MY FAMILY!!!!!

I Will Do The Same Thing

Since young, we try to learn how to walk, to talk, then to walk again for the rest of the life. Many, many things you want it to be, sometimes you are happy with what you've got, but sometimes you might ended up disappointment. Sometimes you will get some friend's gave me some harsh words...

"adui, focus on something you should be focusing lar."

"aiya, why you do like that?"

"wah, you never think before you do meh?"

"hurh, wasting time only."

"I will never do like that one lor"

"aiyo why you so stupid one!"

Indeed, very stupid, never think before you do. But, how do you know you're wrong? Human are born imperfection, and no future vision, you will never know what's going to happen in the coming days. Future, yes very subjective, but its a process of learning. You will only learn to do things better through the mistakes that you've done (source: 13 Going To 30, some part of the movie).

So, if you ask me the same question, I will still go "yes, I will do the same thing", even though if you portal me back to time. I'm so glad I am still having some rational thoughts.

Amen

Dear My Little Friend

Dear my little friend, come take a walk with me

Let's pretend, we're just two people in, and your not better than me, I would ask you some questions if we can speak honestly...



Are we friends?
Why you want to be friend with me?
Do you have any motive behind these friendship?
Have you ever treat me as a springboard? and jump through me and get you wants?
and last...
Do you still appreciate this friendship that we are having now? are you proud?

but the again,

How do you sleep while I am not sober
How do you dream when my eyes have full of tears
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye

I wish you can tell me why

Dear my little friend, you never take a walk with me...

Latest Psychological Test

I have done a psychological test, which can reflect your personality and attitude. I don't usually do THESE kind of things, but somehow this test caught my attention.

吸血鬼
冲动指数：☆☆☆☆
你 算不上是个容易冲动的人，你对于不考虑清楚就行动这样的事情会比较抗拒。你总是习惯于隐藏自己的欲望和冲动，你觉得自己内心有着阴暗面，不适合被人看到 的。这样的你，对待他人是有着一定的恐惧的，因为你实际很怕受到伤害，也很怕被人了解自己的内心。因此，你无疑就是一个躲在暗处的吸血鬼。你内心有着欲 望，有着黑暗的一面，是你不会让它们显露出来。你总是从安全和实际的角度去考虑问题，当你因为某件事情而一时兴起时，你也往往会先压制住，看清大局、考虑 清楚后再作出决定。

In simple English...


Vampire
Impulsive index: ☆☆☆☆
I am partially impulsive, I usually make wise decision before I perform any further action. You always used to hide your desires and impulses, and you feel that you have a dark side in your heart, which unwilling to show it to people. You will have a certain fear towards another, because of the dreads, you can't afford to get hurt, and afraid of people look through my mind. Therefore, a vampire like you, unconsciously hiding somewhere in the dark. Your heart is full of desire to be in the dark side, and yet you will not let the lights interfere you. You always look on the safe side to solve problems, and when you get excited, you will usually suppressed, then make decision right after you have a better and clearer understanding of the surrounding.


Apparently, it's 80% true. The impulsive index was crap, don't look at it, but further reading it, is like looking myself on the mirror.

Well, certain people always misunderstanding me as I am those goody goody guy, stay at home and do homework and stuff. In actual, I'm just a guy, who has bad tempered, bad attitude (i do dig nose infront of public), speak foul language, vandalism, provoke myself into real fight, quarrel, ah whatever involved in a real bad situation lar. But the thing is, I never show it :s

Yes, I am not innocent as what you have been seeing. I admit, I have a dark side inside me. Not a pure pure Philip boy anymore~