Rotten Myself In Holidays

Everyday repeating the same thing again and again
- Wake up, computer, food, bathe.

It's been started since the holiday began, locking myself in the room, even my curtains. I have no idea why am i acting so strange(perhaps this is how they see me). But it's different kinda feeling when you do it alone, not to mention eating surfing those kinda of thing, but some others like movies, shopping, walking... sometimes I find it so blissful.

There's thousands of reasons, not to say single, but good thing being alone. However, being alone can be a life-saving, rejuvenating experience. In fact, being alone allows me to do what I want, when I want, and with whom I want(in certain circumstances) without having to answer to anyone.

Presently, being alone allows me to take full responsibility for cleaning and decorating, cooking our meals, planning our activities, and entertaining ourselves. Indeed, I have time to sit in quiet solitude, to run naked around my Royal Bed Chamber, to belch as loud as I want, and secretly watch shows that no one else would actually ever admit to watching (and this excluding porno's). This is because I have more time on my hands and are not avoiding looking at ourselves by focusing our energies on someone else, and why should I? Mum was right, take good care of yourself before others.

Through this opportunity of discovering who am I, I actually see through many things. Yes, I got x-ray vision and...

Abracadabra, I can cast magic spell now Nyek Nyek Nyek~

Fuh, expecting someone else to fill in the gaps usually will resulting in grave disappointments , a sense of failure, and endless resentment.

I starting to love being alone =)